Whatever

I'm pissed
Annoyed
Angry
At you
But not really at you
Bc it's not Ur fault
U didn't do anything
But the fact that Ur on the east coast is the worst feeling
Ur so close
And yet sooo flippin far away
A million miles away
The distance is overwhelming
And you are not here w me
You are not here to see me
Nor are we gonna see each other
You don't even call
Or text
Which is probably the right thing
And is my fault
Because I constantly
Send mixed messages
About what I feel
What I want
Because what I want
And what I need
Are two different things
Reality is something else
All together
Fantasy is insane
It takes over
And controls a person
In the most unhealthy way
Leaves you empty
At the end of the day
Whatever